Conflicting priorities

Fitness
I am tackling on of my key weaknesses at the moment - fitness. I have started attending some training sessions with a trainer that focuses on strength and conditioning for the real world - so there are no mirror, no bench presses, no machines and most importantly NO POSERS.

I have always been apprehensive about going to group fitness sessions, and after my second session I am growing to like it. I don't feel intimidated by the chick that can do pull ups with a 10kg kettlebel strapped to her - or the guy that can row 1km 3x faster than me. OK so maybe I feel a little emasculated - but these guys have been training for months if not years, and I am getting back on the horse.

I went to a session on Friday - I had my doubts on the effectiveness during the first 25 minutes - then something happened. Nausea set in which was soon followed by a huge vomit and I felt slightly confused and a touch dizzy - can any of my Paramedic readers tell me what was happening to my body? Of course you cant - because I don't have any readers - well  that I know of, the blog is only 2 days old, and why would people be interested in my dribble?

My arms where killing my after the pull ups and I could only straighten them today - I felt pretty retarded trying to teach my arms how to do the most simple of tasks, like getting a notebook out of my top pocket - is this how accident victims feel when they are learning to walk again?

Tonight's session focused on squats, more pull ups, some rowing and running - I know I am going to hurt, but I am on night shift so maybe the pain will come on slowly and I can stretch it out - instead of waking up in the morning and feeling crippled - I feel sorry for any of my patients who see a Paramedic walking towards them with the quintessential western bow legged strut.

Study
What could you be studying, you might ask, your not in the coppers yet! And you are right, it has nothing to do with the journey to becoming a copper, so its hard to remain motivated - its my Plan B. When I began my Career, the university qualified Paramedics where extremely rare - with maybe one state looking at it - I was trained under the old Diploma / Adv. Diploma.

The service I work for is encouraging its qualified paramedics to take part in one of the many Degree conversion courses offered throughout the country - I have just started. I am a little anxious - I have never studied at university level before, and to me a reference is something you get from a previous employer - so totally intimidated by the whole APA referencing thing. This is stopping me from starting - I really don't want to hand in something substandard! I may just need to grow a set and get on with it!

I don't really want to be left behind, should I want employment with another ambulance service. But I am struggling with staying on task and some serious procrastination is happening. I am also a realest and know that if the Police thing doesn't work - I will be glad I kept up with the times.

Stay safe people

RKR